Your First Fall


My Dear Son,

I’m laying in bed now while you sleep in my arms. After all the times of almost landing on the floor, tonight you gave me such a shock as I found you screaming on the floor, instead of sleeping on the bed, where I left you. Alhamdulilah, you are fine, just shocked and tired. I don’t know who got a bigger shock though, you or me. You screamed like you have never screamed before and I ran, not fast enough. You rolled off the bed, over one pillow, while throwing off another, probably as you rolled off. At least that’s what I think happened. Shock of my life! I don’t think I’ve ever screamed that loudly since being a mother, besides when you were born. All I screamed, over and over again, minutes before you were born, was ‘Ya Allah! Ya Rabbi!’ And, Alhamdulilah, I think those were the first words I screamed now as well, when I saw you lying on the floor. I’m grateful to have called upon Allah, All Powerful, in that moment of panic and shock. Alhamdulilah. It is always a blessing when Allah, Most Merciful, lets you remember Him (SWT), at times when your heart is pounding. It most certainly is not easy to always remember The Most Beloved in this instance. My dear son, may you always remember to lean on your Lord, through all joys and sorrows. Ameen.
With love,
Mommy

Blessings and Love


My Dear Son,

Today, I feel extra blessed, Alhamdulilah. InshaAllah, we will be on our way soon… To Arabia… Alhamdulilah, we’ve got the yellow slip now, so things can speed up nicely. I am so grateful for this, Alhamdulilah. We’ll be a happy, little family in the desert. 🙂

Today, I also feel especially grateful for your father, Alhamdulilah. I read a brilliant, eye-opening, little story today, one of those stories that just make you feel blessed. One of those stories that you just feel Allah (SWT) guided you to.  It was a beautiful love story that could have had a sad ending. It made me think of my beautiful love story with your father, and then it also made me cry a bit over a broken love story that I know about. My son, may you never have a broken love story, Ameen, and may your parents’ love story inspire you always. Ameen.

With love,
Mommy

The love story I read

At The Dentist


My Dear Son,

Yesterday, I went to the dentist. It was your first time at the the dentist, even though it wasn’t an actual visit for you. I needed to extract my wisdom tooth, the last one that was left. As I laid on the reclining chair alone in the dentist’s room, I had time to think. So, I thought about you. I thought about all the experiences you have ahead of you. Some of which neither your father nor I will be able to really help you with. Events like first days, making friends, competitions, exams, wisdom tooth extractions…

And now I’m getting ahead of myself and thinking about right down the line… institution applications, job applications, marriage proposals… Okay, I need to stop right there. And when the time does come, I need to remember the famous quote: “Love is in the letting go” and I need to know what to do: continue to make dua.

This morning, after you awoke, the first words that came from your sweet lips were “Mama mama”. 🙂

As you laid in my arms, just a few minutes ago, before I put you down for your nap, I gazed at you with sheer pleasure. Such peace and contentment you have over your face as you enter Dreamland.

May I always carry and cherish all these little memories of you. May you always fill my heart with joy. Ameen.

With love,

Mommy